#justwannasaysumthin

He has absolutely no clue how fucked up
I am now because of him.
He has not even the slightest idea.
I can’t even begin to trust anyone anymore
because i’m scared that i’m going to be
used and thrown away the same way he
threw me away.
I’m scared that once they get whatever they want
that i won’t be anything to anyone anymore.

What if everyone else is doing the same thing ;
using me to get what they want, then leaving
and forgetting about me once i’m not good
enough anymore. Once they got what they want.

It’s become so hard for me to believe someone when
they call me beautiful or say that they love me
because he said the same thing and he left me
for dead.

Fuck, i sound clingy and shit,
but i’m so hurt and lost and i don’t know what to
do with myself.
Why’d he leave me?
i know i’m not the best thing out there,
but damn, he took my heart with him.
I just wish i didn’t love him anymore
so that forgetting about him would be easy,
but he runs my mind and owns the biggest part
of my fuucked up heart.