#2nd Death anniversary

I miss you when something good happens, because you’re the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you’re the one that understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life.

-Hey.. Pang how are you up there, it's been 2 years since we didn't see each other's face. I hope you are well right now. You know how I wanted to tell you sorry for not being a good child when you are still alive. I admit my mistakes of being such a jerk for not following all your teachings towards life. Now I am old enough and your teachings are in my heart. Having you as our dad is really great. I never known such an awesome man like you in this life. To the fact that you did not complete your education because of poverty yet you still manage to give us everything we want. Your courage and dedication towards your family really makes me feel proud about you. I still remember that when you scold me once you let me read the whole book of PROVERBS then i cried. Today I read those quotes whenever I feel sad and remember all the things about you. Yes as they say I am the most bitter person when you died, to the fact that I am the eldest and I have all the responsibilities towards our family. I don't understand it at first, I asked God why these things happen but for now I understand that's it's my turn to return the things and all you have sacrificed for us. I may not tell you or let you  feel loved when you are alive, now I'm giving it all to Mama, ate, kuya and Meme. I will not let you regret about what you believe in me. I know I can do this.. Someday I can manage to ask questions on why you leave us so early. 

 

Thank you pang for always believing in me. I know that all of them start to lose their belief that I can graduate after 6 years in college but you did. I will always thank you for the patience you have in me. For every encouragement whenever I fall and for the unconditional love you have shared. I really hope to meet a man somewhat like you. God bless us a great father that we did not regret of having. You being a husband and a family man is also great. You are a dedicated husband as well as a loving father. I never remember even once in my life that you put your hands on me. The best thing that I remember in you was when my 21st birthday falls. When you wish in front of my friends the best of me and you wish me to be a good girl. I never thought that it would be my last birthday with you. I never expect of losing you either. I always wish that wherever you are right now you are at peace and always happy. Don't worry about us, I will take care of our family as long as I can. I will never leave there side as always and I will do my best just to keep the bound between us who are alive.

 

..you will always remain to be my first LOVE.. Love Lots.. Manang.. :)