Never Trust Someone Who Follows the Directions of the Wind

One thing I learned about what happen this fast few days is to never allow yourself to trust somebody who always change their sail just where ever the wind blows. This lesson is all about Friendship.. as time goes by and as we get older we learn that not all we know as FRIENDS really care for us. There are some we call as friends but never really were. I know this girl for a while and notices that she has deepest secrets, I never thought that what I think and observe from her is really true. I was amazed by here presence in my life because she was all good but then suddenly came that day that all I want to do is to ask what did I do to her? Did I say something bad? Or shall I say do something not good to her? I may not be always a good friend to everybody because not all people can understand the way I think and do but what is good about me is I never allow my friends or any relationship to gone bad just because of some issues that aren't really there. 

Think before you react 

Do you really know what happened or your just listen to what others tell you?

I don't really like her attitude towards others but at the same time she is my co-worker and we must still have a good relationship towards work and that leaves everything there at work. Outside our work is another story. But for the friendship I care since we meet in college is not really reasonable to end that way or I don't know if we can still be one. I value everything even the smallest part of my life that's why I always end up hurting. For the other girl I thought as my friend a good officemate I really THANK YOU for a longest time, I know now who you really are. You're not really a good one because you follows the direction of the wind. I know you for the longest but to think that you do such a horrible thing like that is never beyond my expectation. I always expect you to be good at everything and since you are older than me you know everything that would probably kill a relationship between 2 people or friends. How come? That become a big question for me now. You always chat me whenever I stat something bad and make me think that you just care for me that's why you asked. But now? You make me think what's really the reason behind all of those asking moments. Is it bothering you? Am I? I won't ask you something for now because maybe I'm not ready or my heart and self is not really ready to ask those simple things. Someday on my own I will know what's the reason behind of everything you have caused me. I never have any reason to ask nor to be angry at the first 2 because at some point I did have some mistakes too and I honestly admit that. It's not my problem if someone is not OK with my attitude because that's fine with me as I can't please any body and I accept that fact. 

I am what I am 

Yes I admit that I have some attitude that not everyone could understand but that's not really bothers me. Everyone does that and it's up to them if they run their sails with you or not. Everyone has their deepest secrets but not everyone can accept that but your real friends will. I am proud of what I become. I am the person who doesn't really care about everything. If I don't like you then don't expect me to talk to you every minute. Common sense is the matter. If the person doesn't want you in the first place then there action speaks and you have to observe it. 

In this life we don't need to please everybody and we have to accept the fact that not everyone will like and accept our attitude. We do not live in this world alone that's why friends are there. We must take care of the bond we have. As my father always say never trust any body who change their friends once in a while, they will never last as well as they can't be trusted. They are molded that way and we can do nothing about it. It's either you tell them what's wrong with them or they noticed it on their own but failed to see what's wrong with it. I may not be a good friend for everybody, but I will be for someone who deserves to have the respect and companionship I have.


..and by the way.. I cried because I expected too much from you..